I am not happy.
When I came out of closet and told mother that I am gay, she came out of her closet of homophobia and threatened me with corrective rape with a gang of men in order to allegedly change my sexuality. What should I do about it? I am not able to move on from this and it is making it difficult for me to decide whether I should go back to the place in a month after my MBBS graduation where I was threatened like that. That place never felt like home to me and it still doesn’t because I am not able to live my honest self there, be my true self around anyone. I don’t want to live in a closet anymore in the family. Do you really not see me hurting? Do you really not see me in pain and agony and frustration? Mother sends me money for pocket money. She agrees to pay my post graduate college fees if necessary. I only feel to have connection with her through her money and nothing else at all. I want to feel connected with her through her love, empathy, kindness, acceptance and warmth for me. ...